What to say – I feel like I have a lot of stuff coming up. But it is just normal life. Everyone feels this way. It's that feeling you get when Christmas is coming and you haven't done your shopping yet. That's how I feel all the time. I wish meditation helped with this. I mean, it sort of does. I think meditation helps me to understand the difference between feeling this way and acting from the feeling. When I feel this way, I really just need to prioritize and act. Action takes away the feeling that I am not doing enough. Work the list. Deal with interruptions. Stay calm. Don't project onto other people. Try to get enough sleep. Eat well. Repeat.
I cooked a nice meal tonight. It was pot roast with various mushrooms braised in the cooking liquid of the beef then fried in garlic butter. Served with a quick pickle of carrots and cucumber with a little sesame oil in it, roasted cauliflower with Asiago cheese, and some roasted sweet potato. It was pretty good. I think a lot of people would feel very, very fortunate to have had that meal for dinner and I do, too.
In US news – William Barr, you lying sack of shit (to paraphrase Johnny Mnemonic calling Ralfi, after being ambushed). I would be way more OK with Republicans if they just owned it. If they would just say “F—k you guys, we're lying to your face and there's nothing you can do about it, in fact, here's the deal: Trump is a criminal but he's in charge and we're getting what we want, so f—k you.” I would have so much more respect for them (which is to say, slightly more than no respect at all) if they were honest in this way. Instead, they insist on treating us all like idiots. Admittedly, a lot of their voters are complete idiots. But the ones that aren't are going along with them, they are in on the joke, and it makes them feel superior. That is really sad. Think about it for a minute. You are going to lie to someone's face when they know you are lying, but it props you up because it makes you feel powerful. You know they can't do anything about your lying, other than call you out on it, and you deal with that with more lying. And that is the political strategy of the Republicans. Boggles the mind.